Morrisey has been singing to me for a few days now. And I’ve been loving it.
“I was looking for a job, and then I found a job, and heaven knows I’m miserable now”
Heaven knows I’m miserable now – The Smiths
Whaat? That’s not me. lol.
I mean The Smiths are lovey, but this song? It’s an anthem. And have you noticed Johnny Marr and his legend-ness with that guitar? No one can make a depressing song sound so happy like The Smiths do. It reminds me of someone-ehem, a happy tune with a depressing sense of things.
Those who know me know that I have been looking for a job like the one I am currently in for so long, and now that I found it, I feel miserable. However, with many therapy sessions- random shoutout to my therapist for his sense of humor- I have finally concluded that the job is not why I’m miserable. Still, life factors have made me miserable at a job I naturally should love.
I have not found the reason for my miserableness, which is why I miss the “happiness in the haze of drunken hour.” It was not always safe, but it was expected, and it did not expect much of me, and I’m not too fond of expectations.
“In my life, why do I smile at people who I’d much rather kick in the eye?”
Also thought to flag this.
Thanks, The Smiths, for making my confused heart cheery these few days. I awkwardly danced to this tune this morning while making tea, and I did not get caught—a plus for everybody.