It’s my fault

It’s my fault

forgive me,
It's me,
I do that to people
And then I complain when they leave me 


Forgive me for letting you
Take me for granted
I do that
I do that a lot


I let you feel like 
The most beautiful person on earth
The smartest
The funniest
The closest
I tell you how important you are
To me,
To the world
I build you strong
I give you everything 
I prioritize you over me
I put you up so high
And then I get upset when you
Start stepping on me

And then I turn around, 
Expecting you to be there
And you're not there
You're never there
And I wonder, whatever did I do wrong?
Did I love you too hard?
Or is it that you couldn't love me enough? 
Or maybe I just don't deserve the love I expect 
And I decide to leave
To leave you
And you lose that source that gave you love 
And you wonder
And you think I am the bad for leaving
But what can I do? What can I say? 
Can I tell you
Or would you even listen
If I asked you
Why didn't you love me enough?
Why were you not there?
Why didn't you try harder?

How can you tell someone
That they are supposed to care about you
Just like you care about them
How can you tell someone
That if I need them I expect them to be here
Now
And not
In February
When they have time to spare

Forgive me,
But you drained the love out of me
I am exhausted and I have no love
To give back
Forgive me,
But I cannot forgive you for what you did and are doing 
To me