Newyorker but not in Newyork

Newyorker is a café, with bookish interior and torn couches, nestled one minute away from a very busy street full of anarchist-bohemian bars.  It’s a chill café, and it was my go-to place three years ago, where I spent all my free time in. It was nice, quiet, close to home, and had godly awful coffee. 

I used to go there almost every day, accompanied with a friend studying med at university. Whenever I finished work I would just meet him at Newyorker and we just work/study our night away. We had daily work/study dates for almost six months, until the pandemic hit, and I kind of pulled a nour on him and ruined our friendship for personal reasons I will not tell you. 

It was nice, still is. Today, I met up with him again at Newyorker, and we just rekindled the  sparkles we had, and I  absolutely enjoyed every second. He’s a medical person, and I am obviously not, and that is literally the core of all of our conversations, him calling the heart some shit like myocardium and me telling him that ice cream is probably injected with  a deadly bacteria that will make us grow a third leg. 

And we just laugh. He makes fun of me crying for absolutely no reason, and I make fun of him for his failed love life, and it gets as dark as you can imagine.

He tells me the most random stories he faces at the hospital, and I just ramble about God knows what, and I just ask him to tell me about suicidal cases because, lol, they fascinate me.

His car’s name is Lokman, and it’s a transgender car with he/him as pronouns. The car is red, slow, and makes the weirdest noises – but we associated the noise with how vocal and empowered Lokman is in the vehicle trans society. I didn’t have a car then, so Lokman was in charge of roadtrips, from driving to eat delicious shawarma in Aley, to stargazing in a dead end road in Mansourieh.

My friend knew all stars constellations and could tell each’s star’s age, function, and which zodiac sign it falls under. He’s smart like that, he would stay stuff like: “so this place we are in is usually a well known place for horny and high couples. So if you hear any noise different that Lokman’s, please do dismiss and keep focusing on the Gemini star to your upper right.”

It was simple, and I like it. After our little meetup tonight, I drove back home with a smile on my face, blasting Mr. Brightside and feeling refreshed. It was nice to go back to a time where I wasn’t so grownup and did not really understand the world as it is. 

Also, interlude, but have I ever told you about my undying love for betrayal songs? Like Jolene? Back to Black? Bust Your Windows? Angel in Disguise? Jelous? Heaven-sent anthems. If you have a song about betrayal, or a person loving 

I am feeling young again. I know I am only 24, but the past two years made me feel like I am growing 10 years in a month, like I need to act like I know what I am doing and what I am saying, when I really have trouble walking straight and not dropl over strawberry tartes served at a high level reception. 

Enough about me. How about you? Any good/bad things happening with you? Would love to hear them over coffee, or a 50cm long pizza and a dozen eclairs – I’m just PMSing, so please be nice with me.

Three days until 2022 and I am confused

Five minutes until my work hours finish and three days until 2022, and I have a lot to say, meaning I will write very little. Lol. I’m just going to say that this December, just like other Decembers, has been incredible, spent with incredible people, and it was safe again. Now that December has ended, just like the summer, the safety is slowly vanishing, and I am again searching for ways to overcome the emptiness.

Do your colleagues work less during the last week of December too? No one is coming to the office, and I only received 12 emails today, and I’m like? Weren’t y’all crying from work just a few days ago?

Don’t get me wrong; I am happy my colleagues are resting and taking some days off to reflect, relax, and party their lives aways. It’s just that I need as many people around me at the office as I can get, especially this week. Being the only person working on the whole floor surely isn’t the drug I need right now.

I will be writing my resolutions this year, I promise. I have written yearly resolutions for years that I found really useful and fed into my hysteria of organizing my time and achieving, but 2020 was so bizarre and hilariously awful that I am in the last week of December. I still have not written my resolutions for 2021.

So I decided to skip 2021 resolutions, bounce around and see where it gets me. It got me very high, I must say. It was a wonderful year, filled with so much love and so much pain. But this is for a later post – maybe. Hihi.

Other than writing my 2021 resolutions and sharing them with you, pretty peeps, I will also publish all of my unfinished drafts. I have 15 drafts, and they DRIVE me CRAZY because of UNFINISHED WORK!!!?! And I wanted so bad to finish them, but I haven’t. I decided to publish unfinished in one post and try to finish others that I deem important (for me) to be written and shared. 🙂

For now, I shall leave my chair and walk to Mounira, my lovely car.

See ya later, alligator.